Positive mind, positive vibes - right?

What a week it has been! I would firstly like to say thank you for the overwhelming support and encouragement I have recieved from my first blog post last saturday -  it was something I was truly not expecting! If I can even put a smile on person's face, or make a difference - I'm happy with that!

I was struggling to think of something to 'blog' about, but then I realised that alot of things that have happened this week tie in together. I mentioned in my post last week that I had transitoned to adult CF care. Following this, and a turbulent week with my health - my consultant thought the best option was for me to come in for a 2 week course of IntraVenous Antibiotics (IVs).

Initally, I was so defeated when the team rang me to tell me this. I felt like all the progress I had made in the last few months meant nothing. I just felt like I had failed. But then reality hit me and I realised so much more. I remembered that I am so much more than my CF and that I have accomplished loads. From passing my AS levels, to going on holiday, to celebrating my 17th birthday to even going and seeing my Husband Drake in concert ( he doesn't know that yet ) !!!

Sometimes, I think I forget I have CF at times. When I say this, I mean mentally and emotionally. I forget that it is ok to feel upset at times. It is ok to be unwell at times. I think as humans, we strive for approval from others. In the context of CF, personally I have sometimes found myself striving for approval  regarding my CF from my health professionals, family and friends and even myself. For example, I feel like the doctors must 'approve' I am well in order for me to do so also. This is natural and normal, but I don't let it consume me.

Everybody deals with stress differently but the most important thing is to speak out about any worries that you are experiencing. This week I was super worried about my exams and I constantly thought 'I have no chance of passing my alevels'. But, I spoke to my family members and old nurse and I felt better immediately.

If you are struggling, whether it is with school and balancing a long term condition or even just every day life - please speak to someone! I promise you, you are not a burden or an annoyance - you are just human!

I also feel like surrounding yourself around people who are positive and have positive vibes is a very helpful thing. If you are surrounded by negative energy, you most likely will adopt this energy and begin to think negative thoughts and adopt negative attitudes. Of course at times this is inevitable and other explanations for it - but yet again, always try and speak to someone :).

This is because your pyschological health has a HUGE INFLUENCE on your physical health. You can't have one without the other.  I always say 'do it afraid'. Fear is the only thing that holds us back - the fear of speaking to someone, going into hospital and much more. But once you take that step afraid, I feel like you are one step closer to not seeking or striving approval but realising your self worth, improving your self esteem and realising it is OK TO SOMETIMES NOT BE OK!

Regardless if an individual has CF or not - I think that it is good to make sure you have some form of release that helps your pyschological state of mind come to terms with your physical health also and even every day life.

I am not an expert in medicine at all, but I can try and advise and encourage all people regardless of their health status to speak up on how they feel and not to pressurise themselves so much.

Essentially, the message I want to get across in this blog is that - we are all human, we all go through good times, bad times and ugly times. It really isn't where you start off, or even where you end up - in my opinion, it is how you learn how to appreciate the good times, handle the bad times and overcome the ugly times with beautiful ones.

I hope you enjoyed reading and I look forward to writing again!

All my love as always,

Nube xxx